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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Little Annoyances

Little annoyances, don’t you get sick of them? Sometimes I want to say ‘devil go bother someone else.’ Why is it when you’re happy and things seem to be going well, something happens to disrupt the flow? And often it’s nothing major but it’s enough to irritate you.
After the first snowstorm my Jeep hasn’t been driving right. So I figure I’d wait until after Christmas to get it serviced. Automatically I assume that’s going to cost me a pretty penny. Today it’s very windy outside and as I picked up the trash the wind blew into the yard I notice the fence at the back of the house was leaning. About an hour later it was broken. And yes I am annoyed. My first thought? ‘I don’t have money for this. I’m trying to save; I’m trying to budget and now this, four days after Christmas.’ My second thought, ‘Lord give me strength.’ So dollar signs start rolling in my head. Dollar signs I don’t think I can afford to part with but then I realize the only thing I can truly predict is God will provide.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)

Commit your way to the Lord [roll and repose each care of your load on Him]; trust (lean on, rely on, and be confident) also in Him and He will bring it to pass. (Psalm 37:5)

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Red Truck of Mercy

That’s it, I quit, I give up!!
That’s right I’m throwing in the towel, waving the white flag.
I’m finish, I’m done. If I never see snow again it will be too soon for me. I just finished working an eight hour overnight shift and the last thing I want to do is shovel.
As a child I couldn’t wait until it snowed. My cousins and I would spend hours playing in the snow we were supposed to be shoveling. Now when the weather man predicts snow I hope and pray he’s wrong.

I thank God for snow blowers, plows, and throwers. Unfortunately my little snow throwers are gone for the weekend, I don’t have a snow blower and didn’t reach my neighbor who has a snow plow until I was half way done. The bible says to give thanks in all things. When I saw him pull up in his red truck I said ‘Thank you Lord, because you know I’m tired'.

A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing….
(Proverbs 17:22 )

Merry Christmas & God Bless

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Strings of Faith

“Behold I am the Lord the God of all flesh. Is there anything to hard for me?
Jeremiah 32:27

Has the joy that once filled you slowly deserted you? As talks of lay-offs and businesses going bankrupt sweep across the nation stirring fear in the hearts of many during this holiday season. Unemployment is at an all time high and jobs an all time low. Gas prices seem to be dropping as the price of food continues to increase. Though there have been lay-offs in the postal service the bill keep on coming. As all times this is truly a time we have never seen before.

Brothers and sisters this is not the time to loosen the strings of your faith. Our father is the same yesterday, today, and forever more. He doesn’t punch a time clock nor is he bound by the restraints of this world. The condition of this nation is scary for many but it's nothing for God.

Its times like these I am glad He works in the realm we can’t see. If you’ve ever been in a crisis and made it through by what some may call a miracle, but you know it was His grace, you understand what I’m talking about. Who are you trusting and depending on? If your faith is in the one who knows and sees all there really is no need for me to tell you, he’s working it out.

I have been young and now am old, yet have I not seen the (uncompromisingly) righteous forsaken or their see begging bread. Psalms 37:25

And those who know your name will put their trust in you. For you, Lord have not forsaken those who seek you. (Psalms 10:10)

Now Faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things (we) hope for, being the proof of things (we) do not see and the conviction of their reality (faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses).
(Hebrews 11:1)

Monday, November 3, 2008

Birth of History

Wade Walter Murphy
November 3, 2008.
6 lb 8oz

Born a day before the presidential election.
In your parents eyes history has all ready begun.
As adult voters wonder who the next president will be you lay wrapped in a receiving blanket so peacefully. One eye open and the other closed as if playing hide-an-seek with those who came to visit you. In the frailness of your form loving bonds are being made. And one can't help but admire how fearfully and wonderfully God has made you. Looking at you brings back memories of my children's birth and I find the whole blueprint of life to simply be amazing. How does God do what he does? How does he fashion and form so uniquely?
How does He decide whose eyes, nose and even toes you'll have?
It's awesome, when one really thinks about it, how detailed He is.

As the love of family surrounds you, God presence is also there. Just as He kept you in the comfort of your mothers womb
I know that he will continue to comfort, protect, and provide for you.
Only He knows what tomorrow will bring
In His hands rest your future and hope.
As your parents nurture you not knowing what challenges are ahead.
Or the course life will take you on.
Progressing from infant, to toddler, teenager and adult. It is my prayer you will know Him and forever feel His presence. As he breathed life in you and numbered the hairs on your head, in His arms of love your future has all ready been read. It's amazing to think your path is all ready prepared.
It is my prayer you will walk it out.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Up For The Challenge

This is an interesting and challenging time in history.

With talk of recession due to a failing economy. The truth is no matter who's elected to the White House they'll have a lot to do and much to overcome. Big businesses and banks going bankrupt; who would have thought we'd see such a time? I find it interesting that the money hungry are now having a difficult time holding on to there money. People are being laid-off from jobs they've worked for many years, and others look around hoping their not next in line. Patience, trust, and beliefs are being tested. Carelessly the government has hit us where it hurts, and for many hope is gone. Those who once frowned on the homeless and wanted them housed far away from them are now wonder how far away they are from being homeless themselves. As money continues to be harder and harder to attain, we helplessly watch friends and strangers lose their homes. The things once taken for granted now lay heavy on our hearts. Deciding whether we'll go to the doctor,buy groceries or filling up our gas tanks takes preference over leisure and minor enjoyment. I don't know about you but these are decisions I never thought I'd have to make. Yet, these decisions lead me to this simple question.

Do we trust Him?

But I am like an olive tree.

Flourishing in the house of God;

I trust in God's unfailing love

for ever and ever.

psalm 52:8


Psalm 40:4

Psalm 52:1-9

Psalm 62:8

John 14:1

Romans 15:13

Friday, September 19, 2008

What A Day

I was going to title this post, Bitter Sweet, then Be Angry and Sin Not ,but as you can see I changed my mind.

Bitter because I had to spend my morning in court rehashing divorce preceding that for me seem to be going no where. It's amazing, the whole dynamics of marriage,divorce, love and how on the scale of life hate can so easily filter in. I sat there, watching lawyers, laughing, smiling, and initiating small talk and pleasantries with passerby that they knew. It was work for them, and my lawyer appeared to be enjoying his job. I scanned faces of couples who appeared to be going through the same thing I was going through. I'm sure the stories varied along with the emotions. There was no laughter, no smiles, and if any of them felt the way I felt the joy, for that hour was missing. My lawyer converse with his lawyer and it really irritated me. Not because of there conversation but the nerve of this man (husband) to want things and carry on as if I wronged him. Then I got angry. Angry because morals and infidelity have no place in a court of law. They don't care if the spouse was unfaithful the only thing they care about are your assets. Angry because I married him and after twelve years, don't know him at all.

Ephesians 4:26 Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath.

So we stand there bickering about the equity of the house and proof of credit card debt, and I am amazed because I honesty felt like I was doing him a favor. He cheated on me with someone I don't believe he ever stopped loving. I thought the right thing to do was to give him the freedom to be with her. Silly me. Simply amazed that he would stoop as low as asking for a glass table that he knows I gave to the Salvation Army. I felt like I was in a scene from Waiting To Exhale, and I'm in aw, the money doesn't matter, the principle behind it is what I find interesting. He wants to make me pay, monetary and emotionally. He wants to make me pay, as if I wronged him. I left the court house fuming. During my drive home I kept replaying it in my mind and telling the lord I was angry really, really angry. It's been about an hour, I feel better now.

Roman 12:19...Avenge not yourselves but rather give place unto wrath, for it is written, vengeance is mine, I will repay, saith the lord.


Today is Tee's 19Th birthday. She is my blessing and gives me reason to celebrate. God's been good to me. He has blessed me with wonderful children. She inspires me and she'll always be my baby no matter how old she gets.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Let It Rain

Let the cries of love lost and tears of recent hurt rain down on the shoulders of those who created them

Let it rain

Let the rain of rejection and pain from sorrow nurture the soil that desperately needs it

Let it rain

Let it drench the flowers while feeding the needs of dry lands in deserted places

may it's sincerity bring cleansing

Inhibit no more

Hurting no more

Creating value in unbarring places washing away iniquities of the past

Will it's showers bring forth purpose of greater cause ?

Feeding the soil, reaching the roots, nurturing the branches that show signs of new life

Will the grass come back as green?

Will the lilies continue to sway in an ease that pleases the Father?

The one who nurtures the earth is He not the same one who nurtures the troubled soul?

As the showers of rain have purpose

Does not the flood of tears?

Doe He not wipe both away?

Let it rain

As the words of our Father leave drops on the soul

Covering the heart with a shield of love

Does not everything have purpose?

For when He has replenished to the ends of the earth will it not bring joy?

As yesterdays showers become puddles of child play

Does not the morning sun chase everything away?

I say yes

......Let it rain.......

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Change One

We're constantly asking what's happening to our youth. Yet fail to realize we've all played a part.

What do you see when you look into a child's eyes?

Can you see pass the negative and strive to bring out the positive? Are you speaking life into there lives believing God will touch there soul? Do you see a girl who will some day be a lady? Or boy who will some day be a man?

I've worked with children who've been treated in the most horrific ways imaginable, by people who should have loved and nurtured them. Yet, when I look in their eyes I can see a child that's screaming to be set free, a child longing to be loved. Regardless of what has happened to them they're still vulnerable and innocent. Emotional fences have been put in place and memories of destruction guard their hearts. While flashbacks of abuse invade their mind. Pictures of a home filled with drinking and drugs torment their thoughts.

'She didn't have to try and sell me,' I heard one child say. Finding comfort in material items, and protection in blankets that can't erase fear or pain. How do you identify with your maternal abuser? Who's gonna love me? Who really cares? Do you know what happen to me?
It breaks my heart to say yes. Then I pray. Knowing only God can mend a heart that's been so brutally damaged. In those eyes I see a child never given the opportunity to be one.

Values are twisted and minds are lost. Yet we stand around shaking our heads and pointing our fingers. We say we're keeping it real..Then I have to ask, by whose standards. Living in a society where the word is used so loosely.

Real is defined as a state of being. A fact, permanent, not artificial but genuine, or being precisely what the name implies.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were really, 'keeping it real.'

Worldly real is sceptical , lacks trust, denies truth, and hides behind phony conversation and faint smiles. I'd say this generation of youth are keeping it real. They've brought to light what has for years been hidden in the dark. Some adults judge them and carry on as if they don't have any idea of where these behaviors came from.

They didn't make the rules they just perfected them. We praise past generations as if we lived in an elite time. Yet I remember a time when issues weren't talked about; and a child knowing their place meant they kept their mouth shut. Whether negative or positive we were to do as told and not as seen.

Today, the negatives and unseen of yesterday ride side by side. What was well hidden in the dark has come to the light.

Unfortunately, many of today's youth have not only brought to light the ills of the past but have taken it a step further. We must look within our selves and step up to our responsibility. Whether or not there ours doesn't matter. We have a responsibility, one that entails a lot of work, but is well worth the effort.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Broken Moment

Today I'd like to discuss an incident that happened a few weeks ago between two women. The anchorman described what he labeled as a distressing act of road rage. A forty-two years old, who I'll call Nancy, and a sixty-five years old I ll call Alice.

Summary of the incident:

Nancy and Alice cross paths mid-week during the afternoon hours. Nancy's car was stopped at a traffic light behind Alice's. As they started driving to there destinations, something about Alice's driving irritated Nancy. Nancy didn't hesitate to blow her horn and mouth what Alice assumed were obscenities. Unfortunately, Alice had to stop for another traffic light. As she sat at the light, regrettably stopped in front of Nancy. Nancy, then got out of her car with a pipe in her hand and tried to smash Alice's driver side window.

The story ended with Nancy's arrest and her mug shot on the television screen. Later that night as the story re-broad casted. People who knew Nancy spoke to her character not believe she would do the things reported.

I assume something negative had all ready transpired prior to her meeting Alice on the road.
(ephesians 4:26-32)

She experienced what I'd call a broken moment.

Giving away to the flesh, by allowing an interaction with someone else to influence her mood in a negative way. (Galatians 5:15-24)

The importance of this moment is how we react. Realizing that negative emotions left to fester can bring us to ruin and out of God's will. (Eccl7:9, 1peter5:7-10)

That leads me to wonder if she knows God? And if she knows Him did she call on him?
(deu 4:29-31, Rom 7:15-22, 2Tim 3:13))

Have you ever had a broken moment?
What have you done in your broken moments?

Monday, August 11, 2008

His Love

In Him the perfections of an UN-perfected world
Realizing trials must come
Yet, the reality of the suffering one endures
Is only made vivid when given the opportunity to live through it
How awesome a savior who took on sin to deliver us from it
Knowing our suffering and pain could never compare to His
Our precious savior endured the pain to walk us through our own
Reminding us that in Him all is possible
All can be new again
A love so strong it could never be replaced
His love
Allows us to walk through the fires of life never to be burned
Reminding us He did not say it would be easy
Yet He keeps His promise to never leave or forsake us
A promise hidden deep in the hearts of those who love him

Bible Ref:

Daniel 3:25

Matt 19:26
John 3:16

Rom 5:5-8

Heb 13:5

Thursday, August 7, 2008

My Protector

The relevance of His love resides deep in my soul
A place untouched except by His hands
He knows me..The me others can't see...The me some don't understand...
The me He created and continues to mold
In his arms I am protected and given the ability to flourish
Filled with his wisdom I rise above my circumstances
Stepping in the footprints He's created
I walk towards a path which leads to my future
Erasing the past where pain and sorrow rein
For He captured the tears of yesterdays misery
deleting the shame
disposing the guilt
covering it all with His everlasting love

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Lord Help Me Guard My Mouth

He who guards his mouth keeps his life, but he who opens wide his lips come to ruin.

Proverbs 13:3

It sounds simple enough. Be quiet. Don't say anything you don't need to. Watch what you say or at the very least how you say it. Why is it not as simple as it sounds? It's my mouth, my body, I should be able to control what I say, and how I say it...He who guards his mouth....How often have you wanted to hit yourself for allowing the opinions or rudeness of someone else to take you to the point of no return? You know that point where something inside of you said, let it go, ignore it , walk away before you say some you'll regret... But he who opens wide his lips... Have you ever walked away just to have the last word? Comes to ruin... How many relationships have you seen ruined because the parties involved weren't able to take control of the situation? One careless comment led to days of arguing. One senseless statement hurt the feelings of their love one. In that moment it's Gods wisdom we need. He is the only one able to catch us before we fall into the traps that kill relationships and others spirit. . We must remember to call on him and simply ask, "Lord help me to guard my mouth."

My Healer

Lord, what do I do with my broken heart?
I've read the scriptures and continue to pray
yet I can't seem to cast down the imaginations that keep evading my mine
Father how do I quiet the storm that rages in my soul?
What do I do when everything I've tried seem to fail?
more pain,more sorrow
I feel your presence Lord
I know your listening,
I know your going to answer...But
I don't know how many layers of me you need to remove and it frightens me to know your not finished yet
showing me things about myself I don't like
Things I don't want to see...
I'm not strong enough, but you continue to expose me
I'm weak Lord..Why is it so painful?
Did I sow all in which I'm reaping?
Did I make anyone feel as unloved as I'm feeling?
Please, Lord forgive me
You say your work in me is not done
You are the master surgeon
I'm your patient
More anesthesia, I can still feel the pain
You say you won't give me more than I can bear
I'm still hurting Lord
My legs are still weak
My heart doesn't feel strong enough
You say I must go on...
I'm able
"Who do you trust?"
In you Lord do I put my trust
The pain is subsiding..I can...
one second at a time...
one minute at a time..
one hour at a time.
Thank you Jesus
It's a new day

Bible reference:
Prov 3:5-6
John 16:33

written 2006
while going through
marriage separation